Been busy...
I am Extreme Vampyr. And I’ve been trying to use the internet or anything really as a source of stimulating my creative abilities. I have a podcast, an Etsy shop, a YouTube channel, ... well, several channels ... plus I have shit online from years ago as well still floating around.
There’s music, art, videos, blogs, and a plethora of other shit that I’ve been making since around 2004 or 2005.
Right now my podcast is my main priority as I can set back, click record, and just talk ... simple but not always easy ... but there’s an art method to creating my podcasts that forces me to be artsy with it as well.
Now... saying that is fine. But, I’m also bipolar. And having motivation and desire to actually sit and focus and “work” on my projects are a huge issue. Depression fucks with me all the time. And when I’m writing music or drawing I’m never satisfied or impressed by anything I make .. I’m always self doubt my abilities. And finishing things never happen so I end up discouraged until the depression has past. Which could be from that same day to months later.
So posting and putting things online sometimes doesn’t happen. And sometimes for longer periods of time then I want but ...
Here’s a podcast episode where I review WWE WrestleMania this year
As I get older my bipolar and BPD seem to be getting worse. This as my understanding and knowledge of these issues get better. I still end up sitting for hours in quiet and cry. Not knowing why I’m crying ... it’s just an overwhelming feeling of emptiness. Sucks!
